ok so basically aku dah habiskan semua drama korea (yang aku berminat nak tgk lol i have 3 times filter: the hero, the plot, the drive or nafsu to watch until the last episode which selalu nya takda. aku cepat bosan, klimaks lembab aku tinggal) nak raya and keluar, semua orang ada class or kerja and suddenly aku wonder why you guys kerja so fast? kita kan baru habis spm semalam, tak ke? so pendek cerita aku dah taktahu nak buat apa, dah buat almost semua benda termasuk lah teman ibu tgk drama hero seorang cinderella. aku takleh brain ah cringe gila. why people....
Dulu zaman aku seseri ala zaman baju kurung tudung bawal ke depan selempang dgn lengan baju tarik sampai lengan (sbb pls no boys here we own the world) , aku selalu sok sek sok sek pasal Estrella kan. Tu nama batch aku btw since ni benda yang dah setengah dekad. Those good old days (not all time good tbh plus all my homesick, all girls sch drama, all i did was study play and study back haha no boys right nak menggatal pun takda orang bagus bagus)
Batch aku was great. i mean okay lah no one highkey mencapub so i kinda like them. Haha those days when batchmates were all you have (sobs) kita belajar sama sama, tak faham mintak kawan yang power sikit explain kan. kita buat formula acronym sama sama lepastu share satu batch. Menjerit cheer batch everyday after dinner. kau bayangkan 😷 Haha boleh lah all those little things that matter
dah habis spm, kita move on dengan hidup masing masing. Sampai lah last week, aku dpt msg ws cakap one of our batchmate meninggal. wow. shock. what a joke. sampai ada yang tak percaya and cakap benda mcm ni jangan buat main, so half of me was still shock and another half mcm denial lah. Kawan kau. meninggal. sama umur. we even met during notts game haritu, siap bual tanya dia macam mana, ok ke cope dgn scottish accent and then sembang gelak gelak amik gambar. Idk that was my last time seeing her.
And that was first time for our batch to experience someone meninggal. Selalu nya instagram feed kau penuh gambar and post that one particular person sbb birthday dia. All those long post you thought would be grammy speech. And here comes all the throwback seseri pictures. BUT that was our first time ig feed full sebab kematian. And then you realize the only that matters for our batchmate who is now arwah (😔), is alfatihah. Plus doa.
Ada orang cakap ni and aku yang tengah emosional masa tu mcm lagi lah emo bila dengar "dan sekarang estrella takkan penuh ahlinya" something mcm tu. That's sad. But true. Sadly true.
Sedih do serious, takda lah rapat pun dulu tapi sedih ah kan. Satu batch kan ramai. Bunyi mcm jetjet tapi kenal semua orang tapi tak semua orang rapat dengan semua orang, tapi still ada lah sense of value in life. Tak perasan tapi the absence of one person is so prominent and important.
Aku tahu arwah sooooooo selfless, orang duk cakap dekat aku dia ni pandai addmath and selalu tolong orang. Sampai aku yang uh-huh um probably useless HOD addmath who tried to function jumpa dia in person and ajak dia masuk department addmath haha tak pernahh di buat orang but why not kan shes good. Tapi selfless dia rupanya sampai ke saat genting hidup dia, dia utamakan and selamatkan orang dulu sampai dia yang mati lemas 😔 (This is so sudden but yeah aku wonder apa rasa mati dalam ketakutan)
A girl who looked beautiful even with her niqab on. Beautiful inside and outside. Beauty with brains
Alfatihah, Nurul Nabilah Sharul Ami
suddenly my rants sounds so depressing lol
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